Blogged by Endy on 8 August 2006
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The term has been deemed childish. By golly then maybe I am. I am one who has been governed by his emotions and for a long time, at that. But the buzz it creates within me is something that I am not willing to ignore. Cos it wouldn’t let me. It just keeps coming back. What do you call it again? what was that term . . .
Ah yes . . . its rampant. =)
so do I thank my lucky stars for the undue stress that my ligaments have been put under?
the badminton “career” that I am putting on hold?
the “riquelme” moves I try to emulate now just figments of my imagination?
the slimming down I have duly postponed to no disciplined ends?
such thoughts are way too premature. Have I failed to mention that its only a crush? But aye . . . so saccherine a smile is so mortally impossible to forget. Really. I am a sucker for such. Have always been and looks like I am true to form - such is the rusty estate of my romance novels. Chapter by chapter passes with no conclusion in sight. Sigh . . .
the 25th of this month. I am really looking forward to it.
See ya, J.B.
Blogged by Endy on 6 August 2006
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I didn’t need to see you go away from me. I already realised that was the last. Not that I never knew. I just chose not to believe. But if you think its for the best then let it be.
Let me know, let me know
Ah - ha, let me know, let me know
Let me know
When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it’s hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know
There are times when I find
You want to keep yourself from me
When I don’t have the strength; I’m just a mirror of what I see
But at your best you are love
You’re a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know. . .
When you feel what you feel
Oh, how hard for me to understand
So many things have taken place before this love affair began
But if you feel, oh, like I feel
Confusion can give way to doubt
For there are times when I fall short of what I say,
What I say I’m all about, all about
But at your best you are love
You’re a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know. . .
Tell me what it is (Tell me what it is)
Make believe, no need to make believe
Look beyond your own (Look beyond your own)
Try and find another place for me
Cause. . .
At Your Best - Aaliyah
You were good to and for me. I never denied. But this is time for me to play catch up, with you already so far ahead and healing. Heal I shall. Come back, I shall. Better than ever. Just watch me.
Blogged by Endy on 3 August 2006
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My grandpa has peacefully returned to Allah’s graces on the 1st of August, at a grand old age of 82.
Do say a prayer or two for Mohd Zaidi bin Shamsuddin. He will be sorely missed by the family he left behind and by the people who will hear of his stories and wished that they had met such a man.
Al Fateha.
Blogged by Endy on 1 August 2006
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Grandpa isn’t doing too good.
What started out as a blockage of the chest turned out to be kidney failure. Both. And one has shrunk so bad that he no longer responds to treatment and he’s too old to go through a transplant . . . let alone dialysis. Tonight was especially worse. As my family members solemnly gather around his bed, I cannot believe my own vision . . . that the one in that bed was my grandpa. My superman. My superhero.
Very weak, barely able to breathe - due to the fluids in his lungs - and unable to recognise the people around him, he spoke for the first time today. He prayed. As I whispered prayers into his good ear, tears escape my walls and I realised that my fears are very real.
I have a new fear.
Phonecalls from whoever’s staying with him. Usually its mum.
I am. For I fear.
Blogged by Endy on 30 July 2006
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Hmmm.oh…
Dikalaku kesepian
Dihanyut ombak nan resah
kau mengubati kerinduan
Dikalaku keresahan
Dihanyut malam nan gelap
Kau menerangi hidupku
Kini Segalanya telah berubah
cintamu hanya memori indah
Ku ditinggalkan kesepian
Pilu hatiku
Kembalilah kepadaku
Selamilah jiwa ini yang terluka
Ikatan kita berdua
Sayangilah diri ini
Belailah jiwa nan sepi
Kelayuan…Dedaunan keguguran
Dahan nan kerapuhan
Bunga2 cinta…layu dipusaran
Hmmm…hmmm…
Dikalaku kerinduan
Dihembus angin nan pilu
Kutatapi wajah dirimu
Dikalaku keseorangan
Di hanyut asmara cinta
Kau membelai jiwaku ini
Hanya satu ku pinta oh darimu
Hargailah cinta kita…
Oh..
Gelora menikam jiwa ini
Melanda di hati ini
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